Date:
23.1.12
Time: 10:47
Time: 10:47
I ended my leave with a Bang!
Went out for drinks that proceed to partying at Avalon
Met a crazy ex who happen to have found me on
facebook recently and asked if i was married!
Straight up asked for a standby husband for the night
Should I bump into him upfront! Koz i said I was!
Well things lead to another when the husband asked
to act like one, I miss how FLIRTING feels!
Went out for drinks that proceed to partying at Avalon
Met a crazy ex who happen to have found me on
facebook recently and asked if i was married!
Straight up asked for a standby husband for the night
Should I bump into him upfront! Koz i said I was!
Well things lead to another when the husband asked
to act like one, I miss how FLIRTING feels!
I still have the magic!
When I buy fags and have to present my ID
cashiers seem to be appalled that I'm of the age
Do I dress too casual or young?!
Or.... I just look young - which I doubt so
with my scarred riddled face!
Met Josh recently and he said I seem to be more bubbly
Good sign I guess
He posted a question recently
"Don't you find it strange when serious planning have been
discuss and things just went wild and that whether there is
still something to work for since the split"
My answer is Yes and No
He said he's willing to whatever I state as he's putting
the ball in my court, my retort is this
Well, when you don't like how one thinks after 5 yrs
Change to an individual who's thinking you fancy
**AMIK KAO**
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When I buy fags and have to present my ID
cashiers seem to be appalled that I'm of the age
Do I dress too casual or young?!
Or.... I just look young - which I doubt so
with my scarred riddled face!
Met Josh recently and he said I seem to be more bubbly
Good sign I guess
He posted a question recently
"Don't you find it strange when serious planning have been
discuss and things just went wild and that whether there is
still something to work for since the split"
My answer is Yes and No
He said he's willing to whatever I state as he's putting
the ball in my court, my retort is this
Well, when you don't like how one thinks after 5 yrs
Change to an individual who's thinking you fancy
**AMIK KAO**
Date:
20.1.12
Time: 02:12
Time: 02:12
I've set my mind to start dating!
Its gonna be dead but I gotta start somewhere
So I tested the market and hung out with some
guys and asked what are their ideal girls
Aesthetics and personalities
well just to know where i stand - need to do my own reflections
So as of now I am at no point to reject dates unless
I have been out with the guy and there is no appealing
factors for me to go on to the next
or should i try 3 dates?
Bleearrgh!
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Its gonna be dead but I gotta start somewhere
So I tested the market and hung out with some
guys and asked what are their ideal girls
Aesthetics and personalities
well just to know where i stand - need to do my own reflections
So as of now I am at no point to reject dates unless
I have been out with the guy and there is no appealing
factors for me to go on to the next
or should i try 3 dates?
Bleearrgh!
Date:
18.1.12
Time: 23:42
Time: 23:42
I met him as he invited me to view his apartment @ Reflections
It just felt so comfortable
Fret not nothing silly happen, we just hung out
It felt good but my decision still stands
It just felt so comfortable
Fret not nothing silly happen, we just hung out
It felt good but my decision still stands
I have received a shocking message from Munky
a crazy ex that never in my life i wished to
bump into anywhere! For god's sake!
He found me in Facebook, i sure hope he doesn't
remember my hp no. please! If he remembers my
no. and where I stay I may have to move out temporarily
reading the exchanges of replies to find out how he found
me gave me goosebumps and sweat pores were at work!
I am scared now, seriously!
He caused a 8cm gash on his head and blamed it on me
Me who sent him to the Accident & Emergency to get it
stitched up and paid for it and never once thot of getting
reimbursed - and he BLAMED me for all!
**Shivers down my spine**
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a crazy ex that never in my life i wished to
bump into anywhere! For god's sake!
He found me in Facebook, i sure hope he doesn't
remember my hp no. please! If he remembers my
no. and where I stay I may have to move out temporarily
reading the exchanges of replies to find out how he found
me gave me goosebumps and sweat pores were at work!
I am scared now, seriously!
He caused a 8cm gash on his head and blamed it on me
Me who sent him to the Accident & Emergency to get it
stitched up and paid for it and never once thot of getting
reimbursed - and he BLAMED me for all!
**Shivers down my spine**
Date:
12.1.12
Time: 06:20
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Time: 06:20
I miss him so much to a point of restlessness!
I'm hooked on a Korean drama - Protect the Boss
I miss leaning on him and his smile
I feel so useless in overcoming this phase
How I wish I can be hypnotized for the better
can't help but keep thinking of what and where
have I or it had gone wrong for us to have gone
this way, it is just so hard to just have the reason
of "things are just not working out"
ADELE seems to sooth my sorrow although
her songs don't fit my situation but just fit
the pain and sorrow
Didn't I give it all
Tried my best
I'm hooked on a Korean drama - Protect the Boss
I miss leaning on him and his smile
I feel so useless in overcoming this phase
How I wish I can be hypnotized for the better
can't help but keep thinking of what and where
have I or it had gone wrong for us to have gone
this way, it is just so hard to just have the reason
of "things are just not working out"
ADELE seems to sooth my sorrow although
her songs don't fit my situation but just fit
the pain and sorrow
Didn't I give it all
Tried my best
Gave you everything I had
Everything and no less
Everything and no less
Didn't I do it right
Did I let you down
Maybe you got too used to
Having me around
Did I let you down
Maybe you got too used to
Having me around
Date:
9.1.12
Time: 04:19
Time: 04:19
Clouds of thought seem to storm my night
Can't help but feel cheated for 4 years thinking that
he was the one, the one I'll grow old with
Eternalize fond and joyous memories that we would have
along the years to come and not to forget the wars...
I just happen to realize that we recently ate at Far East Plaza
and a fellow colleague happen to pass by, whom he greeted and chatted
with for at least 8 mins and he somehow blocked her view
of me as I remembered them in a tango of conversation
He didn't even introduced me! It NEVER crossed my mind till NOW!
I feel furious over this as the dark clouds overcast my thoughts!
Then there was the rejection of sending him off before his flight to Japan!
Revealing that he doesn't want his colleagues to see me, I feel like
a mistress. Am I so bad that his society will not accept me?!
FML
"What do I want" seems to be a question that I can't answer
Its scaring the life out of me that I myself can't seem to decipher or define
Throwing money around seems to make me happy now
But ain't a good habit to keep
Can't seem to get a hold of myself
I think I have withdrawn myself socially to protect my raw wound
Can I banish their memories of him with the gadget from
Man In Black - that would help me heal tremendously!
It ERKS me now to see couples in the moment
NOT PDA, just those entangled fingers, fingers thru the hair
hand on the face, looking into each other's eyes, etc
These drive me to role my eyes in ERKSOME & JEALOUS fit!
I need a solution - maybe a holiday alone will help
Self rehabilitation to the darkest storm and out - hopefully
I yearn for a warm body to snuggle up and cradled to make me
feel safe and comforted and promise that life will be better
as I will come out stronger to face the world!
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Can't help but feel cheated for 4 years thinking that
he was the one, the one I'll grow old with
Eternalize fond and joyous memories that we would have
along the years to come and not to forget the wars...
I just happen to realize that we recently ate at Far East Plaza
and a fellow colleague happen to pass by, whom he greeted and chatted
with for at least 8 mins and he somehow blocked her view
of me as I remembered them in a tango of conversation
He didn't even introduced me! It NEVER crossed my mind till NOW!
I feel furious over this as the dark clouds overcast my thoughts!
Then there was the rejection of sending him off before his flight to Japan!
Revealing that he doesn't want his colleagues to see me, I feel like
a mistress. Am I so bad that his society will not accept me?!
FML
"What do I want" seems to be a question that I can't answer
Its scaring the life out of me that I myself can't seem to decipher or define
Throwing money around seems to make me happy now
But ain't a good habit to keep
Can't seem to get a hold of myself
I think I have withdrawn myself socially to protect my raw wound
Can I banish their memories of him with the gadget from
Man In Black - that would help me heal tremendously!
It ERKS me now to see couples in the moment
NOT PDA, just those entangled fingers, fingers thru the hair
hand on the face, looking into each other's eyes, etc
These drive me to role my eyes in ERKSOME & JEALOUS fit!
I need a solution - maybe a holiday alone will help
Self rehabilitation to the darkest storm and out - hopefully
I yearn for a warm body to snuggle up and cradled to make me
feel safe and comforted and promise that life will be better
as I will come out stronger to face the world!
Date:
7.1.12
Time: 12:15
Time: 12:15
I can't stop reminiscing those fond memories
That wry smile he has, the stubbles against my skin
The moments of greed over meals and fighting for the
loudest burp after a sumptuous feast
I can't help feeling being pulled into this loophole
thanks to a kind soul's pouring his hearts out about a girl
I have been dodging him to prevent myself from being
sucked into the hole again.
Had supper with a long time friend, it was
good time spent laughing my ass off - a good break
from HELL at work
I have to return to hell this afternoon tho, I wish
Little Nicky was around! Haha
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That wry smile he has, the stubbles against my skin
The moments of greed over meals and fighting for the
loudest burp after a sumptuous feast
I can't help feeling being pulled into this loophole
thanks to a kind soul's pouring his hearts out about a girl
I have been dodging him to prevent myself from being
sucked into the hole again.
Had supper with a long time friend, it was
good time spent laughing my ass off - a good break
from HELL at work
I have to return to hell this afternoon tho, I wish
Little Nicky was around! Haha
Date:
3.1.12
Time: 00:56
Time: 00:56
Life seems to start on the right foot for the year 2012
Keeping me self occupied and well
accompanied with my love ones!
Feelings of lost is still present but not as bad as
I had anticipated....
Looking forward to opening new doors for a better
lease of life and fond memories
Cheers to the off days with great plans coming up!
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Keeping me self occupied and well
accompanied with my love ones!
Feelings of lost is still present but not as bad as
I had anticipated....
Looking forward to opening new doors for a better
lease of life and fond memories
Cheers to the off days with great plans coming up!