Made a huge mistake at work inconveniently affecting everyone and I really mean everyone.
I need a brown bag to cover my head at work!!
I just realize that I seem to get really affected when a particular event happens
Can never seem to separate or surpass the feelings involve
I have never been like this, wonder why
Used to be able to separate Work, Relationships, Friends, Family

Each has its folder of emotions that I can put aside or put out
Never been an issue
Apparently I have lost the 'folder' system, maybe I've less patience
Or maybe having a quarter-life crisis!
Now it seems like when moments are bright it feels like a fairytale
When it dim or dark it just seems like a nightmare
Sometimes it just feels ever so unreal either way.
Ever so distinctly black and white! NO!!!!!
I should be full of colors, where have all my colors disappear to?
What moment have it been bleached out?!
The trip alone out to London was great but sadly I didn't achieve the psychological mental exploration that I had plan to do. Just achieved greater insight on my capabilities.
Nonetheless Singapore will just be the place I shall have the greatest discussion with myself for the greater being of my existence, which hopefully I'll find something
Tummy has been in constant hard work ploughing and causing a ruckus of percussion for nourishment that body has bloat from all the absorption.
Am I drained or just morphing to another breed of colors and this is the detoxing/brainwashing period? Thoughts have never been so scattered, altho it has always been, its just very messy now. Its ever so evident that I get lost in my emotions and thoughts sickeningly drowning myself.
I no longer know I NEED